Keep On Moving, Keep Climbing, Keep the Faith.

' Between laughing for no reasons, stupid arguments sometimes, long talks and making fun of each other, I've fallen in love with you,' (Rayyan Darwishy, 2011)


Have I told you lately that I love you too, boo ? Well, I'm gna tell you everyday, every hour, every minute and every second that my heart always long for you ;)

Yesterday, everything seems so fine, seems so great and seems so breathtaking but when the new day has started, it changed it a blink of an eye. Nothing last forever you know ? Be thankful to God for lending you a piece of His greatness to survive in this temporary world.

dont hurt me, karma is a bitch.

cheers .

wish list.

i desperately need

- the old man's hug.
- new phone.
- ikea meatballs and daim.


I desperately want to

- have a barbecue
- fly a kite
- playing with the bubblegun

and I desperately must

- get rid of this fever !

Be happy.

have you ever wonder walking in the shoes of a mum who has a handicapped lil darling ; amputated her hands and feet fingers ?

Have you ever wonder walking in the shoes of a handsome man who lost his two legs due to an accident otw back from college ?

Have you ever wonder how does it feel to walk in the shoes of an old man suffers from stroke for almost 20yrs and living all alone because his wife dumped him for a younger man ?

Have you ever wonder how it feels like to walk in the shoes of 6yrs old kid who burnt himself during his house fire ?


I've saw them suffer to be independent, I've heard them screaming in agony during the treatment, I've touched the damaged occurs at their body and we should be thankful for the better life we have.

I've beent there, I've done that.

Maybe the end will be the same too, perhaps ?

people who accept others critics are people who interested in self-improvement.

And I guess you can't take it aite ?

Why don't you just take it from the positive side ? Take it as an advice from a sister to a sister. I'm sorry if I didnt please you the way you want me to be, I just dnt live my life to it. Btw, sape je aku neh nak compare kan dgn org lain kan ? Aku kan tukang dgr prob kau tukang bg nsht tukang risau psl kau tukang segala tukang lah. Takde hal pun hal kecik ape la sgt kan.

Sorry means nothing when you keep on repeating the same mistake.

Number Six

Hullo June ! I know its a day late but who cares neway :) Thanks to the Al-Mighty for lending us some times to breath and to enjoy this temporary life. 2011 has come to its middle phase and hopefully this month will bring us plenty of good things.

I'll be home tomorrow, I'll be with my pretty people, I'll be drowning in the warmth of Granny's love. See, June already brought me good things :)

p/s : I can smell more good things on its way :P

Blank

Hullo pathetic, errr i mean hullo blog, heh. Been lazier to mumble things here these last few days but now I'm up to write stories again.

Nahh, i know, who cares anyway, aite ?


P/s : arif and wanie, congratulations for you both :)

There are few things I've noticed during my hiatus. Why people keep on selling marriage or love problems in facebook or blog ? Is it cool enough to let people know you are in the rocks ? Is it cool enough to let people have bad mind setting abt your love ones ? There was a friend who once wrote in her blog saying if you want to stay longer in a relationship, keep it low. Bragging to much or criticizing your partner publicly wont bring any good.

Well B, this goes to you.

B here is not as the B in the Bie, B in the Baby, or as the B in the Hubby or Boo. Its another one or B that represent an indecent word, a word which you know what it is :)

Hi B, been a long time huh since the last I ever wrote about you ? I know you've been dying to get my blog's url, but pls always remember what I'm gna tell you, take note ya.

You've been watching me got knocked down by life and laughing, and now I'm seeing you've been ditched by someone I believe you really want to make you mine before. All I can say is screw you and serve you right. Karma always work. You dnt hve to be such a BS to know whats happenin in my life. You gotta stay quietly and keep chasing guys. Thats your favorite things to do aite ?

Have some dignity yo B !

thoughts

on my first thought, its you.

On my second thought, its you.

On my third thought, its you.

On my fourth, fifth, sixth and so on thought, it still you.

Distance kills me, but it wont kills us, right ?

Kryptonite.

Somebody save me,
I don't care how you do it,
Just save me.


Don't envy me cz it's never easy to be me. Try to walk a mile in my shoes and you'll know how rough things going here.

Most of the Time.

Demotivated.

Back from hiatus with a low self esteem. Well, I've found myself tired with faking too much confidence in myself. Tired of chin up and the serious face. Tired of running here and there just to make sure everybody's okay. Tired of giving a damn abt someone else's problems. Tired of this bloody damn bored college. Tired. Tired. Tired.

Don't grumble honey, he said.

Now, all I'm wishing for is sometimes for me, for myself to flee and spend a good quality time with my own self. I wish I could be home, sitting with my leg crossed on my favourite couch while listening to music and reading my novel. Aahh, not to forget my favourite coffee.

But dont you know darling, my biggest wish is to be with you, just you. So why dont you just leave your unfinished work and fly to the South ?

Desperately need you.

who do you think you are ?

running around leaving scars ?

hi pathetic, why you have to be so fucking pathetic ? could you pretty please answer my bloody question ?

i try to look at your face when we talk, i try to listen when you talk to us, i try to do what i should do as a friend but could you please behave ?

couple months to go nira, hold on.

nanti kau rindu pulak nk tgk pmpuan tu merengek depan muka kau. haha

it wont harm me

hullo abandoned blog ! :) how are you ? missed me much ? ahaa, i guess you are not. well, dah lama tak update blog, but its okay, nobody read mine, ngeh. life is a bit annoying nowadays, perhaps it just another test given by the Al-Mighty. as we grow older, we learnt a lot. sometimes, the fight picked by the others  help us to know better who can be a good friend to us. friends sometimes gonna drown you and sometimes they save you. now i know who can drown me and who gonna save me. people will be nice with you for purposes and some be nice just because they are nice. just bear with all the shit given, they know what they didnt know. they didnt know the truth and i'll never bother to tell the truth and play pointing fingers game.the truth will come out from hiatus soon and by that time, i'll surely aware that its the time for that particular person to feel the tense :)

ouhh, thanks to my darling for all the good words and time spent. i'm sorry for being extremely cheesy these few days :P yours always :)

Stop falling down ouh sky.

I am sorry, but what the hell ?

My atm card was eaten by the bloody hungry atm machine. Dengan tidak sengaja lagi separuh sedar I've kicked the machine and caused me a minor pain on my toe. Now I'm a flat broke and I got no money at all. Poor me much ? Please do so, huwaaaaaaaa !

Kids, no, teenagers, please be a lil bit matured please ? Please please please with cherries on top stop bothering my mind with stupid silly things. Be a lil bit more positive and that surely wont kill you. Mak penat la nyah nak fikir benda kurang pandai mcm tuh. Grrr. Stop whining at my ears, nyampah, lempang kang tau la. Grrrr.

no way to hide

25 days to go.

I'll be sitting my summative exam in 25 days more. dang. can somebody kill me ? committing suicide is a big sin in Islam and surely I wont do it. macam mana nak jawab summative ni eh ? Idk whats in my mind and idk what I've learnt within these 3months. all the theories and the philosophies seems sooooooooooooo *&^%$ @#$% and to those who are planning on joining the  medical line, you better think cook cook before you make your choice cz this field is not for people who are so playful and damn lazy to revise and memorize all the bloody facts and medical theories. and always remember, medical line means you are responsible over others' life. no matter who you are, a nurse, a therapist, a radiographer, a pharmacist, a medical assistant, a dog doc, people will put their trust and will rely their hopes on you. if its not you, then who ?

summative exam

theatre presentation *again*

a visit to rehab

clinical 

AND 

AND

AND

HOLIDAYS !

:))

p/s : three is to crowded for tango

little reminder

explaining things to someone is not a damn easy thing to do, not at all. despite of telling the truth, I rather lie, yes lie and I am sorry for doing so. sometimes it is better for us or for me to keep quiet and say well, I am okay, nothing much to worry though in the other hand, I am hell not okay and you should be worry about me.

an exaggerator exaggerates.

I wonder why things are not the same anymore. whats wrong with you darling ? do we have an unsettled issue to argue about or you are just being nasty ? well I guess a good friend not only shares food with one another but also shares the same enemy too, right ? but darling, as someone who is older that you, I would like to advise you to stay hell away from other people's prob and just mind your bloody bussiness. you know what you dont know and what you know is not exactly right. manusia ni bermuka muka and certainly I am not one of them, bear with me. dont listen to one party only and starts to jump into stupid conclusion. i got a very limited patient and please dont let me yell straight on your face asking you "whats wrong with you bitch ?"

you dont know me and you dont know what I've done and what I can do 

p/s : be good and I'll be super good to you.

dulu sekolah kat mana ? ouh tak sekolah ehh ?

kawin lambat : tak laku a.k.a anak dara tua a.k.a bujang terlajak

kawin awal : gatai tak pun terlanjur

memang mcm ni eh mentality manusia or to be specific typical malaysian's mentality ? shucks . what a retarded brain you got there darlings . dah laa , g duduk dalam gua tuh , bye !

btw, an exaggerator will always exaggerates, why dont you just keep it low ?

:)

dear HEART

i am so sorry for being so stubborn

i am so sorry for being selfish

i am so sorry for being too introvert

i am sorry for making you worry

i am sorry for causing you lost your appetite

i am sorry for making you unhappy

and 

i am sorry for making you lost your patience

I LOVE YOU

:'(

p/s : you always comfort me with you blanket of love and i always loving it