thoughts

on my first thought, its you.

On my second thought, its you.

On my third thought, its you.

On my fourth, fifth, sixth and so on thought, it still you.

Distance kills me, but it wont kills us, right ?

Kryptonite.

Somebody save me,
I don't care how you do it,
Just save me.


Don't envy me cz it's never easy to be me. Try to walk a mile in my shoes and you'll know how rough things going here.

Most of the Time.

Demotivated.

Back from hiatus with a low self esteem. Well, I've found myself tired with faking too much confidence in myself. Tired of chin up and the serious face. Tired of running here and there just to make sure everybody's okay. Tired of giving a damn abt someone else's problems. Tired of this bloody damn bored college. Tired. Tired. Tired.

Don't grumble honey, he said.

Now, all I'm wishing for is sometimes for me, for myself to flee and spend a good quality time with my own self. I wish I could be home, sitting with my leg crossed on my favourite couch while listening to music and reading my novel. Aahh, not to forget my favourite coffee.

But dont you know darling, my biggest wish is to be with you, just you. So why dont you just leave your unfinished work and fly to the South ?

Desperately need you.

who do you think you are ?

running around leaving scars ?

hi pathetic, why you have to be so fucking pathetic ? could you pretty please answer my bloody question ?

i try to look at your face when we talk, i try to listen when you talk to us, i try to do what i should do as a friend but could you please behave ?

couple months to go nira, hold on.

nanti kau rindu pulak nk tgk pmpuan tu merengek depan muka kau. haha

it wont harm me

hullo abandoned blog ! :) how are you ? missed me much ? ahaa, i guess you are not. well, dah lama tak update blog, but its okay, nobody read mine, ngeh. life is a bit annoying nowadays, perhaps it just another test given by the Al-Mighty. as we grow older, we learnt a lot. sometimes, the fight picked by the others  help us to know better who can be a good friend to us. friends sometimes gonna drown you and sometimes they save you. now i know who can drown me and who gonna save me. people will be nice with you for purposes and some be nice just because they are nice. just bear with all the shit given, they know what they didnt know. they didnt know the truth and i'll never bother to tell the truth and play pointing fingers game.the truth will come out from hiatus soon and by that time, i'll surely aware that its the time for that particular person to feel the tense :)

ouhh, thanks to my darling for all the good words and time spent. i'm sorry for being extremely cheesy these few days :P yours always :)

Stop falling down ouh sky.

I am sorry, but what the hell ?

My atm card was eaten by the bloody hungry atm machine. Dengan tidak sengaja lagi separuh sedar I've kicked the machine and caused me a minor pain on my toe. Now I'm a flat broke and I got no money at all. Poor me much ? Please do so, huwaaaaaaaa !

Kids, no, teenagers, please be a lil bit matured please ? Please please please with cherries on top stop bothering my mind with stupid silly things. Be a lil bit more positive and that surely wont kill you. Mak penat la nyah nak fikir benda kurang pandai mcm tuh. Grrr. Stop whining at my ears, nyampah, lempang kang tau la. Grrrr.

no way to hide

25 days to go.

I'll be sitting my summative exam in 25 days more. dang. can somebody kill me ? committing suicide is a big sin in Islam and surely I wont do it. macam mana nak jawab summative ni eh ? Idk whats in my mind and idk what I've learnt within these 3months. all the theories and the philosophies seems sooooooooooooo *&^%$ @#$% and to those who are planning on joining the  medical line, you better think cook cook before you make your choice cz this field is not for people who are so playful and damn lazy to revise and memorize all the bloody facts and medical theories. and always remember, medical line means you are responsible over others' life. no matter who you are, a nurse, a therapist, a radiographer, a pharmacist, a medical assistant, a dog doc, people will put their trust and will rely their hopes on you. if its not you, then who ?

summative exam

theatre presentation *again*

a visit to rehab

clinical 

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HOLIDAYS !

:))

p/s : three is to crowded for tango